I feel like all the life I live before the war

“In the late 20s of God, he is designed for God for people to live with their parents,” Hanya Aljamal said.

His mother, father and father and five growing sisters were lived in the balcony of a small apartment – because it is the only place where it can be peace and calm.

Two years ago, 28-year-old Hanya worked as an English teacher and lived in his apartment. He was appealed to colleges to make a master in international development in the United States and applies to a scholarship for a scholarship. Things were going well – but life is now different.

Like most days, it starts in the balcony with a morning coffee, a man of Hanya neighbor, a man in the 70s, a neat building, the seedlings and plants, the seedlings and plants are carefully grain.

“It’s just like a form of resistance,” Hanya said. “All this finds time to train something again in the middle of horror and uncertainty and has something completely amazing about it.”

Hanya lives in Deir al-Balah, 25 miles in the mid-eastern corner of the Mediterranean, which has been in the south-eastern corner of the Mediterranean, which has been in the middle of the Mediterranean since October 2023. marked an audio diary with a Radio documentary with BBC About what life there is.

The school taught when the war began. Hanya became a teacher who was not a student and school, I felt the fingers with whom.

“It is a very difficult goal to find some kind of comfort or meaning as the whole world left each other.”

The apartment is his fifth home since the Hanya family started shares. 90% of the UN assessments were expelled by 70% of the war – often. Most pots are now living in temporary shelters.

Hanya 2 is awake on Monday.

“It was a blast, then after a second and the third,” he said, “he was so high and very terrible. I tried to fall asleep.”

The Israeli government is aimed at destroying the opportunities of Hamass, which describes itself as a Islamist resistance movement in Gaza. The United Kingdom, the United States, Israel and others are appointed terrorist organization.

Israeli military operation, armed Palestinian groups led by Hamas, attacked Israel on October 7, 2023, about 1,200 people, and the majority of civilians and 251 hostages.

To date, the Israeli army has killed more than 56,000 people in the conflict – Most civilians – information of the Ministry of Health of the Ministry of Health of Gaza Hamas. Israel does not currently allow international journalists to provide free information from Gaza.

Hanya works for aid organization called for humanity and holds the days in one of their projects. A group of girls who wear white shirts and kefifiyeh, they fulfilled a dance around the walks and then attend a group therapy session.

One is to lose what you think of your house, others lose their belongings, friends, their loved ones. And then suddenly suddenly begins to cry and everyone is silent. A teaching assistant removes her daughter to comfort her private.

“And then someone tells me that he lost both parents,” Hanya said.

Tuesday, Hanya, Five-color kite flying in the sky from the balcony.

“I love kites – says it’s like an active act of hope.” “Every kite is a few children trying to be a normal childhood in the middle of all this.”

To see kite flyers, the drones, planes and “killing machines” are used to see Hanya’s apartment, say. However, that evening, the “Night Orchestra” of the nearby drones begin to be played in the “night orchestra”. He describes sounds like “psychological torture”.

“Sometimes they are so high, you can’t even listen to your own thoughts,” he says. “They are a kind of reminder that they are ready to watch, wait, waiting.”

Thursday morning, Haniah hears loud, consistent weapon sounds and what could happen. Maybe theft. Maybe a meadow war between families. Maybe someone who defends a storage.

Spending most of the day in bed. Each time he tries to stand up and previously fed, he shows himself when the Eid al-Adha is in the influence of fasting.

Hanya has a large psychological impact on the lack of control and the life of what he ate.

“You can’t control anything – even your thoughts, even your well-being, and even who you are,” he says. “It took me a while to accept that there was no longer a person I know.”

The idea of ​​studying the school and abroad, where the school he taught Hanya is very far away.

“I felt that I was drilling,” said Hanya, “Like all this. None were true.”

The next morning, Hanya, rods and wake up to the sound of a call to prayer.

This is the first day of Eid al-Adha when his father will generally sacrifice a sheep and shares the meat with the need and relatives. However, the family has no means to travel now and there is no animal to sacrifice anyway.

“The population of all Gaza did not eat any protein outside the canned pawn beans in three months,” he said.

Hanya’s family, when he wanted to help, discover that one of his uncle’s son was killed.

“I did not know him very well,” says, “But it is hungry, the common tragedy of someone who wants to eat and sufficiently in the process of grotesque.”

In recent weeks, there were many shooting events and hundreds of deaths in the distribution points or near. The situations are controversial and it is difficult to check without knowing free information in Gaza.

Hanya knows at least 10 people who lost their lives during the war. This number is a colleague who is engaged in several students and a month before the war. He was the same age and shared his glory as Hanya.

Hanya updates your CV to name the college professor. It was his judge and had to write a mentor – but now he died.

“Someone says that they believe you, and tell you that they bet you,” says.

Hanya does not think that these people are sad for any of any of the people, and say that she feels her feelings rationally reassured if any of her close family hurts.

“It is a luxury that we can’t afford our grieving.”

Cocks notes the beginning of another new day and Hanya gets a beautiful pink and blue dawn from the balcony. He says he developed the habit of looking in the sky as he escaped.

“It’s very difficult to find beauty in Gaza now. Everything was covered with gray, or soot,” said Hanya.

“Something about the sky is that the lack of color and space gives you the beauty seal.”